On Wednesday 14th August 2013, I submitted my just-short-of-4kĀ opening, synopsis and bio for SCBWI -BI’S Undiscovered Voices 2014 competition. When I pressed that button labelled SUBMIT – the other meaning seemed all too relevant. I felt trembly and humble – like sneaking my homework onto the Headteacher’s marking pile and running away.
It was that line about it cannot be changed. All that irrevocability.
I felt the poor thing was dead, embalmed, or pinned down like a Death’s Head moth in a Cabinet of Curiosities.
One comfort was the remaining 67k or so.{ If any agents or editors are reading, yes, it is finished!} Those words have possibilities for playing with, some life left in them. I feel there are still aspects I can nurture, prune, train up a trellis.
To an extant, a story is never finished. It’s always tinkerable. But when to let go? I had no choice with that first sample.
Is writing a story like gardening – never done?
Or is it more like painting? You get to a point where you send it out and let the viewer, or the reader, decide.
Now there’s a happy thought. I believe that the reader brings life to a writer’s words. Another person interacts with your scribbling, imagines, creates a world out of your work in their heads. How ASTONISHING is that? It emerges like a living thing in a new form.
So now I think I may be waiting till December to see if my work has pupated successfully!